Being humane

Humane : having or showing compassion or benevolence.
synonyms: compassionate, kind, considerate, understanding, sympathetic, tolerant

Ever since I couldn't install my Twitter, I have lost my daily source of local and international news. I didn't know much of what was happening in the world other than my own surrounding - which is already problematic itself.

Plus I've never really cared about Malaysian headlines because its conflicting and it doesn't increase my intellect at all. I know, its snobbish of me to say such about my own country. I just wish for a more educated Malaysia. That's all.

So, here's a story,
One sahur during Ramadhan, I was eating and I heard my best friend, Syahirah mumbling about execution and beheading. I was surprised because "why are you talking about creepy things super early in the morning?"

Then she told me the latest issue about the UPNM student who died because he was tortured to death with an iron. The student was tortured because he was accused for stealing a laptop. Funny thing is that they knew it from a shaman. The ones who did the abuse was around 20, and 5 of them will be executed soon.

I was so shocked of the news, I felt my heart breaking listening to Hera. (Drama sangat) but yeah it did. I ended up going to my balcony bed crying because I was just so depressed of the news.

I was weeks late to know actually, I'm always like that except for the latest music. I don't know what gets viral these days. My friends will be like "What? How did you not know? Why so late like frog under coconut shell?" I'm in my own cocoon stuck with Architecture. Duh? Aiceh, always using architecture as an excuse.

Okay, back to the story. I just couldn't brain how out of the 20, not one person had a heart. Not even anyone could stop them from hurting him. Everyone in the room could actually bear listening to him in agony. What a poor soul. You see because of a laptop something that's non-living, you end up killing a person who had every right to live. I'm surrounded by so many whys' right now, maybe forever.

It depresses me actually, I'd ask Allah why is this world like this? My mum would tell me to calm myself and just focus on my studies because she knows how much I overthink. Even my lecturers are surprised with my age. I'm only 19 and its saddens because I know the probability that this is not just in Malaysia, I bet there's more happening around the world that we don't even know. There's so much hurt, hatred, heartlessness, we forget how to be humane.Maybe the student was tortured before or maybe its normal for military students to get beaten up to boost their capabilities and discipline etc.

Even if that's the problem, don't let it stop you from doing acts of kindness to people. I get it, I was once hurt too but it would put shame to my own self if I let me do hurt to others. I know some people are heartless because they have been so kind in the past, heartbreaks etc but don't let it stop you from being a kind human being. Don't let it ruin that heart of yours. Its your most prized possession only you and only you can ever hold.